Sunday, March 22, 2009

I'd written a long post, but due to a number of complications it was deleted before it ever reached the internet.
Anyway, gonna take driving lessons, hopefully I'll find some Kendo lessons too.
Wish Rajen would tell me if he even wants to see me or not, and would pick up when i call, it's a nice courtesy, even if you want to avoid someone.
And if he is trying to obtusely avoid me, I wish he'd just say so instead of leaving me confused.
Anyway, I've been seriously angry and pissed off recently. Especially today.
So I'm taking a break. I'm closing down MSN for a while, and not gonna go on facebook. might check e-mail, but probably only for interesting flyers, it's all i use my old account for anyway, it's a glorified RSS reader.
I'll update later, when I feel less pissed at everyone, three people who read my blog.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

What's Happened Lately.

My boyfriend broke up with me. It was a fairly mutual thing, no ill will was harbored, quite the opposite in fact.
We broke up because we had an argument, basically. However, the argument was actually more of a buildup of something that I didn't realize was building inside me. Basically, since I'm out and he's not, we realized he put others before me when he normally wouldn't have, and it got to the point that basically he had no time between school and his family left for me. It resulted in some emotional distance, and a lot of pain, so we broke up.
But, there are benefits here. We're friends, i can actually have MORE access to his life now that there's nothing to hide about me, he'll still be there to help me navigate the confusing world of Singapore's gay culture, and I'll still provide unwavering optimism about the human condition. We've talked everything out now, so I'm actually feeling okay about this.
So, I'm not happy that I lost a boyfriend, but I am happy that I gained a friend I can trust.